So wordpress tells me someone found my blog by typing in “supreme wisdom”
I’m so sorry if you were expecting the Dalai Lama and got me instead.
I know it might have come as quite a shock.
Hopefully you’ll still accept my arb little life anyway.
Today I actually had quite a supreme day.
Two hours of rehearsal for my group children’s theatre piece.
One hour for my duet for physical theatre piece.
An hour and a half in the library wrestling with satan the photocopying machine AND the stapler AND anything material it seems.
(But at least I know have a bazillion notes on Romanticism and Postcolonialism to use for my looming torture exams)
AND then I went and got chinner (lunch + dinner) at Steers.
AND then I went to church at 5pm
AND I got home at 9pm.
SUNDAY’S QUOTE: (learn or burn) (that means write it on the tablet of your heart) (with Artline700 High Performance fiber tip Permanent Marker) (not in black, that’s the devil’s colour) (try pink for girls and blue for boys) (okay here we gooo)
IF YOU DOUBT, OR LACK FAITH, GOD WILL GIVE YOU NOTHING.
James 1:5-7 in the NIV says these lovely, merciful and unconditionally-loving words:
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
Ah, so that means that now I, and I’m sure hundreds like me, doubt God, doubt the church, but I cry out HELP ME DUDE!!! I don’t know anything about you, maybe you’re actually horrible and mean, or nonexistent, but if you are there I think you might be good and powerful enough to help me!
But God, according to James guy, and my interpretation, says, YAH NORT HEY. YOU’RE UNSTABLE LIKE A TABLE (RHYME!) WITH THREE LEGS, AND I’M AWESOME GOD, SO SORRY FOR YOU! YOU RECEIVE NUTHIN’! YOU RECEIVE ZILCH TILL YOU TOTALLY BELIEVE IN ME.
(but how is that possible, oh Cheesus, when I doubt you, and need you to come through for me so I can believe in you?)
EITHER YOU ASK AND TOTALLY BELIEVE, AND THEN I BLESS YOU (SOMETIMES) (TERMS AND CONDITIONS APPLY) (YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THOSE TERMS AND CONDITIONS) *
OR, YOU ASK AND DOUBT, AND YOU GET ZIPPO! YE? YE??
* OH, AND EVEN WHEN YOU TOTALLY BELIEVE ME, I MIGHT STILL ALLOW SOME OF YOUR BABIES TO DIE OF LEUKEMIA OR AIDS, EVEN THOUGH YOU PRAYED YOUR HEART OUT AND HAD FAITH IN THEIR HEALING.
AND YOUR CHURCH WILL SPEAK WORDS OF WISDOM INTO YOUR HEART THAT SAY, CHILD OF GOD, THE ‘MOUNTAIN DID NOT MOVE’ BECAUSE YOU DIDN’T HAVE A HEART FILLED WITH THE REVELATIONS OF GOD, WHICH BRING YOU FAITH. YOU ASKED FOR SOMETHING BUT DIDN’T REALLY HAVE FAITH FOR IT TO HAPPEN.
My Sunday confession: I thought of throwing my Bible, of burning it, of resigning from Projector Min at the end of this Semester (july), I observed (perved) over some cute guy in the church…
All this while working the projector which displays the lyrics on the screen for the congregation to sing. HOSAAANNA HOSAAANNA click repeat click repeat click repeat GOD OF TRUTH AND LIFE
[also, apologies for the crap formatting. I don’t know how to get larger spacing btwn lines (ie double or at least 1.5 spacing), and my paragraphs also don’t seem to separate, and sob sob fix it.]