Today is one of those days when my head feels really heavy
and I shake without meaning to,
I shake without meaning.
My writing is erratic, I zone in and out of lectures, and I forget why I should be alive.
I can’t wait for these classes to end, for it to be in my hands to research, read and get to terms with. Right now there is no time, and sitting in class unprepared feels like shit.
Other things that feel like shit are the weather, my fear of losing friends, my good-again crap-again health, all my stupid bad habits, and the fact that I am not sleeping right now.
Hibernation would be great.
When it feels like everything you’ve built
Is busting at the seams and soon will all come crashing down
Build support or start from scratch again
Move ahead to find your way around
Cause the route that you took was misleading,
and you made some mistakes on your way last time around
So here’s your second chance to
Be strong up against attack
Just know you can always build it back
And even the hardest times eventually will always pass
Sometimes it can seem unfair
But nothing will change just standing there
Every battle that’s worth fighting had to start somewhere
Use the wreckage as a starting point
Or move on and start again somewhere you’ve never been
End result will be the same each way
Play it safe or reinvent again.
And there’s always two sides with different ideas
And compromise isn’t easy
It seems the cycle never ends